Here's what happened. Since I became aware of how fear is widely used for control in our society, I paid attention to such manipulations of fear. For example, I began to see the introduction of TSA and the more intrusive airport screening after 9/11 as an application of fear to exert control. 9/11 is used by those who want control for many purposes. The fear it introduced is used to justify the existence of TSA and the ridiculous searches we have to go through (and if one understands the true nature of 9/11, then it's more clear that the fear it introduced is truly groundless). But I fully bought into that fear before I became more aware. What outraged me even more is the intrusive full body scanner they introduced -- Initially I thought they would only randomly pick people to scan this way, but now it seems to be a standard procedure for everyone. How could anyone tolerate such an intrusion? Well, with fear we do.
So I've decided that to signify my objection and recognition of this fear, I would decline this scan and opt for the manual pad down if I could not just go through a regular metal detector at the airport. And that's just what I did. Luckily I travel mostly with my kids, so usually they will let me through the metal detector as the kids do. But when I traveled by myself, my opted for the pad down. I don't mind being padded down -- the female officers were courteous and I felt like I was going through some massage therapy. It's just tedious having to ask for it, and sometimes have to wait a bit for an officer to be available, especially at larger airports. I didn't feel embarrassed or nervous, for I felt I was doing something for a higher purpose, I was standing up for something.
Then one weekend after a half marathon race in the west coast, I was to catch a red-eye flight back east. I was quite exhausted and I did't feel like going through the trouble of asking for a pad down, knowing that there would be long lines at the large airport. So I thought to myself: I don't want to ask for a pad down and I don't want go through the scanner, and from what I learned, this is my wish, my desire, and I should be able to make it manifest. I know it's possible, for I noticed that sometimes the TSA would stop the scanner and let people go through the metal detector for a while for no obvious reasons. Now, supposedly I can make it happen to me by just desiring it -- somehow when it's time for me to go through security, they will use the metal detector in stead of the scanner -- and it can happen without me doing anything particular other than desiring it. So I thought I'd give it a try and see what happens. It'd be a good learning opportunity.
That's just what I did. I made up my mind that I would not ask for a pad down, but I also would not intend/expect/want to go through the scanner. At the airport, the line was long, and I waited without making any request. Just as I hoped, before I reached the scanner, for no apparent reason, they stopped the scanner that was fed by two lines, and let passengers go through metal detectors instead. I was pleased, "yeah! it worked!" As the person before me went through the metal detector, I was still piling things on the conveyor belt. I had quite few stuff with me, I had to take off my shoes, my jacket, laptops, ipads, and phone/changes. As I stepped up to the metal detector, the TSA lady stopped me. She motioned me to go to another line, which lead to the scanner. She's closing the metal detector line. I obliged. Hmmm, interesting... I decided not to make any judgement of the situation, instead telling myself, "let's see what we can learn from this..." I did do a mental check to make sure I haven't change the desire/belief of not wanting to go through the scanner.
Since the scanner was fed by two lines, there were two people in front of me. A guy went through first, then the lady before me went inside. They didn't scan her right away, so she was just standing there waiting. It seemed there were something going on with the guy who just went through that's causing the hold up. I couldn't really see from this side of the scanner. I put my arms on top of the glass partition and leaned to watch my stuff going through the conveyor belt. I wanted to keep an eye on them for I have quite few things spread through several trays. The TSA lady tapped on my arm, I thought she was going to give me a stern warning about not leaning on the glass, instead she motioned me to come back through the metal detector. Wow, how interesting. I have to say I was quite happy seeing finally my wish indeed come true!
But I wasn't sure what to make all of this. I thanked the universe for the support. I wanted to see what I can learn from the incident. One thing I recognized was that you will experience a seemingly ever-greater resistance when you try to learn something. I wanted to believe that if I can let go fear and strengthen my mind, I can make things happen; then just when it seemed this belief was about to be verified, an obstacle appeared screaming at me to let go my belief. But what did I do to let the obstacle come to naught? I wasn't sure.
Through Bashar's 7 steps I think I may have the answer. Let's go through each step and see if I indeed took them in this incident.
The Setup Steps:
I think step 7 is the most difficult step, especially when it come to achieving my larger goals in life. Why? because now I know there is a reason I'm here, I have a purpose in life, how can I become detached from that purpose? Maybe this is where achieving Zen-like mind and meditation comes in, those practices will help us reach acceptance. Even though rationally I accept this paradox, in practice it maybe hard to do, and it may take a few trial and error for me to get it. My determination is strong, I will get it.
Step 6 is also quite tricky. How to act as if it's already here? It is different for each unique situation. In this case it was simple, in other cases it may require more consideration. But I think letting go fear (and worry) is a common thing we can do. For step 6, letting go fear is the result of acting as if what we want is already here, then we wouldn't be fearful or worrisome about whether it would come true. For step 7, letting go fear signifies the acceptance of what you don't want, for if you can accept what you don't want as a possible outcome, then you won't have any fear.
More to learn...